Guys, i need to get the "deed" over with before the end of this month when I turn 25. Ive tried and tried and tried for 6 years since i was 18 and have NOTHING to show for it. I cant believe I havent killed myself yet. I just dont want that insulting word label on my forehead anymore, it's purely symbolic and I dont want that label anymore, i have to get rid of it. I am tired of this. I know i will feel much better if that label is at least gone and i dont have to get in the car every day fearing i might get into a wreck and die without experiencing that part of the human experience even once, which is why i try not to drive much anymore, i just got a work from home job.