What if you know you’re the asshole. You don’t want to be, but you are. And you don’t seem to be able to change it. And over the years you’ve taken decisions which are very assholey.

You should have no sympathy right?

You’re just an ass then right?

And what if you don’t want to be, but your actions don’t suggest you’ve changed or are willing or able to change? Or that each time a decision comes up where you can not be the asshole, you panic, make a bad decision and then it’s done?

And what if you also suffer from crippling regret. But you know that’s because you feel sorry for yourself, not because you feel sorry for those you’ve affected?

I mean where the hell does that leave you? Are you therefore a sociopath?

Asking for me.