26 now and haven't been dating for a while despite being decently attractive, not really sure what's wrong with me but think it might be because of trauma. 18-21 I was very active and dating, still kind of awkward but became really addicted to sex and having multiple partners and just ran thru lots of girls, most mildly attractive. I guess I was more of a fun, carefree guy since I still lived at home, and felt good about my future, but ever since I moved away I've lost so much confidence, despite girls still being attracted to me.

I would get hit on a fair amount at my last job waiting tables, and I get a good amount of matches on apps, but it never really turns into anything, and I psyche myself out sometimes, feel guilty and ashamed about being poor, not having things, right now I don't have a place, crappy car, and feel bad about myself. And still hold onto a lot of anger from trauma, mom was pretty physically violent towards me and I think it probably messed me up. Also my father was an addict, and most the time I have a very serious/angry look to myself. I think I have an issue w porn also because I haven't really been dating and just watch too much sometimes, think it has to do w sex addiction also.

I've been thru a lot of therapy that hasn't really gone anywhere, tried different medications, tried psilocybin which helped for a little but usually it doesn't last. I'm not really sure what to do, I'm generally a very anxious and loner personality and when girls try to get too close I push them away. I don't really know whats wrong with me but its probably a combination of everything I've gone thru.