I’m sure it’s normal grieving but man a girl is head over heels for me and it is scaring the shit out of me…but even worse it has me thinking about my STBXW and how much I’m not healed yet and still miss and love her. I’m really struggling right now. Did an entire 5 minute video today crying as if it was me talking to my wife one more time to see if she’s sure we want to finalize this next month. I didn’t send it but I did save it. Nothing I say to her right now would bring me anything good, we’re not talking at all other than about the kids. I just was not expecting to feel this type of way about a girl showing me that look in her eyes and desire that I’ve only ever had from my wife.