Very new to MRP (2 weeks) and would like feedback on what I'm doing right and wrong so far.

A bit of background, married 18yrs, M/40, F/40, kids 18 and 9. Have had ups and downs, marriage counseling 8 years ago to deal with wife's anger issues, she was busted around that time cheating online, (I was working nights and not home much at the time) no evidence it went any further than that.

Our sex life has been anywhere between fuck like bunnies (first few years) to sub zero (1-2 times a year after birth of 2nd child), to something more closely resembling 2-3/month the last 3 years or so. When we do have sex now it is very good and improving but still not where I'd like it (2-3/week, more blowjobs). She pretty much refuses BJ's but loves having her pussy eaten and toys (while I'm inside her).

I stumbled upon MRP after hitting a realization a few months back that if I wanted my wife's desire to be at the same level as when we first married, that I needed to revert back to being that guy again. Not the fat, dad bod, beta bitch I had let her mold me into. She had started working out at the beginning of this year and working on losing the 50lb or so she had gained, and I realized that the writing was on the wall for me if I didn't start to do the same. Bonus points for me for realizing this on my own pre Red Pill.

So far I'm down 240>220lbs, and a couple of belt notches. I lift 6 days a week at work (we have a gym) and am currently working on cutting body fat till I'm back to 190lbs then start a bulk cycle. Eating clean 6 days a week, have a cheat meal on the weekend usually. Same shit I used to do pre marriage. I'm actually very much enjoying my strength returning and being able to run more than 30 seconds without collapsing lol.

She's been noticing on her own that I'm looking better. A couple weeks ago she practically mauled me when we got home from a party after she had spent a good part of it telling everyone about the 6 pack I had when she first met me. I think her realizing that it will be returning eventually really turned her on. Whatever the reason, she jumped on top as soon as we got home and rode me till she came hard....something she never does.

So that's the background and where I'm at. My relationship is good but I'm really looking to amp it up sexually and get it to where I need it to be for me. Blowjobs during her period would be a massive improvement. She still rejects far more often than she accepts me initiating.

My MRP journey so far has consisted of reading the sidebar, listening to bluepillprofessors pod cast while driving, The Rational Male best of first year posts, almost done reading MMSLP with NMMNG next.

I realize aside from my improving my self physically that what I really need to work on is upping my Alpha traits and this is where I need the most help. I've been doing my best to either pass her shit tests or STFU. If in doubt I STFU. I did however notice (on my own again) that many of the behaviours suggested I had already been doing on my own with some success. Especially STFU and not getting caught up in her emotions, keeping my frame. Works like a charm most of the time. I can almost see her hamster spinning wondering "why the fuck isnt this working"?

The other night she was either shit or comfort testing me (I'm not sure which) but I think I passed and it was awesome to see her reaction of shock.

Her: Do you still love me? Me: Do you really need to keep asking after 20 years? Her: Are you going to leave me after your back in shape? Me: Only if you don't play your cards right (grin) Her: Why would you say that? Me: Why would you ask that? Is that your plan for after you're back in shape? (Grin) Her:.......dumbfounded Me: Good night, love you. Reached in for a bit of making out and went to sleep.

(Didn't initiate because she was legitimately ill, probably shouldn't have kissed either for my own sake lol)

I'd like a bit of expert opinion on how I handled that one.

Still working on dressing better (waiting until my weight stabilizes a bit), being less boring (less planned and more surprise dates), not being a beta bitch when she gets needy, and reading up all I can to better understand how to keep my frame when she assaults me with a shit storm of emotion.

Thanks for the wealth of knowledge provided here brothers.