So RP at beginning of October, lots of ups and downs so far. See my OYS for details.
This week though my wife has confused the fuck out of me. Monday/Tuesday - wonderfully sweet, great passionate sex (better than in a really long time). Wednesday she went to bed early, last night she went to bed early. Today she says she thinks I'm perverted, treat her like a piece of meat, she's not interested in that at all (she certainly was Monday and Tuesday!), wants to be a nun, all guys are sick.
Conversation went on for a bit, but I fogged/negative inquiry. Didn't apologize for any of it. She never flat out said she doesn't like it, but she doesn't ever think about it and that I think about it ALL THE TIME which makes her digusted.
I know you can't negotiate desire, but for two days it's there and then it's gone. The sex from months past were starfish, Mon/Tue were not. Now this... it's confusing as hell. I'll keep the current path (lift, read, STFU) - feeling great and calmer than ever. But this has been bothering me... I know I shouldn't care but the mixed signals make me question if I'm trying to initiate too much (daily) and flubbing with ass grabs, touching, etc.
I am tracking her cycle, yesterday/today should be ovulation so it's a bit surprising that she effectively shut down. Also, I can't pinpoint anything on my side - no beta behavior, no change at all from Tues->Wed.
Edit: checked her tracking app - ovulation was Tuesday. This explains her actions Mon-Tues. Still going to bed early - at least she's going to sleep. Will post more in my OYS this week. Still makes me angry but at least I'm not complaining and victim puking.