Married, 15y, 2 kids, both 46,I've made limited progress on the path over the past year. Still 7-12 pounds overweight and not lifting consistently. But, I dress better, I have lost 2 stones, I NEVER react - I used to argue back constantly. I think I out rank her SMV (I would say that).
Sat night: I initiated, she was suddenly tired and couldn't get away from me fast enough. We have sex once a week, she's too tired any days but weekend. This was a weekend without this duty sex - I stayed calm and didn't act butt hurt - but was awake all night with uncontrollable anger, my emotions are out of control. The temptation is to give up, just forget sex and intimacy altogether as the pursuit of it causes turmoil for me , but I have a MAP and need to throw myself at it like a rabid dog. - maybe monk mode. But, Jesus the anger, the anger - and I fuckjng meditate an hour day!
Any tips on controlling the anger very welcome.