I can't stop thinking about suicide.

FixYourselfFirst · 2019-04-04T18:42:41+00:00

Call suicide prevention or speak with your doctor. You need better help than can be provided here.

HenricusKunrath · 2019-04-04T19:10:57+00:00

One of the things philosophers have always felt was special about humans was the will. It is strange to consider that a mere human will, something immaterial and seemingly vague is the force that builds countries, or launches a rocket into space, or changes the world for the better.

Inside you there is a will. It is no different from the will of great men, except that right now it is broken, weak, and sickly. It is time that you stop neglecting what is uniquely endowed to humans and use your greatest power.

You have before you an ultimatum. Continue neglecting the human capacity to will self-improvement, continue to hate yourself, or cultivate the will to change how you think. The will is what stands behind the thinking. It can change the patterns of your thought.

Life can be complicated. This choice is easy.

As you dig yourself out of your mental hole you will build momentum. Maintain and build the momentum at all costs.

Understand: As one of the greatest men, Dwight Eisenhower said

"You are about to embark upon the Great Crusade"

Build your ambition by seeing before you a long journey that will take years. At the end of each year look back and see how far you have come to build your ambition further. Men fail because they do not continue the journey.

You are at Mile Zero. Take the first step.

You have allowed yourself to spiral downwards. Stop this immediately. You hate yourself because self-hate is recursive, you look in the mirror at someone who hates themselves and you hate them. End this foolishness now.

You are not happy with yourself. Change it.

Start small, then go larger.

Begin with the mind. Study and understand what healthy psychology really is.

Begin with the body. Lift, run, and be strong. Eat well, reduce intoxicants.

Cut the vices. Porn, weed, endless social media. You see yourself consume these things. Reduce them, then cut them out completely.

Cut the gaming: You play games because its an escape. Because you spend so much time gaming you see yourself wasting time. Because you see yourself wasting time you feel bad about yourself. Because you feel bad you game more. End the cycle.

You may not build countries or launch rockets. But you can improve the world in small ways. You can give back one small seed of kindess to others, because others have given one small seed of kindess to you. You can learn from your experience of depression and self-hatred to help bring others out of theirs. You will see yourself do this and understand that you are not a worthless person.

Don't give up.

tylerpkeaton · 2019-04-04T18:42:16+00:00

Remember, many of the most successful people on earth had periods of extreme darkness. This is a very normal thing and is not unique to you. It will pass with time.

Go buy "12 Rules for Life" by Jordan Peterson.

Message anytime if you need.

un_knownguy · 2019-04-04T19:41:54+00:00

Man I went through the same route that you went, even worse, acne, everybody making fun of me at schools, girls saying they were disgusted to walk next to me, and right now I am the one rejecting them, so always have hope that things will change in the future, remember you are still not in your prime, 30-40 will probably be the best years of your life, so don't get desperate.

Forget about getting with women, just focus on working on yoursef.

Another problem is that you seem to have idealize the idea of being with a women as your end goal, and remember a women can never be your end goal, no matter what perfect the girl(perfect girl does not exist) you find is, she cannot be your end goal, because she can always decide to leave you, so your purpose cannot be to be with a girl, focus on finding that purpose instead of worrying about not getting girls now.

Girls doesn't want a guy who's constantly looking to get to them, they like man with objetives, purpose, so forget about that shit for now bro

Things that help me:

Listen to a lot of motivational songs, ex: I'm a survivor, gonna fly now, lose yourself, till I collapse, I'm not afraid.. etc.
Workout every fucking day of your life, lift and lift shit that scares the shit out of you, if you can't pay a gym, just run or do any exercise, just get your fucking body moving.
Meditate, while meditating always try to leave all "attachments" to this world, and that will help you to dissasociate from your problems.
Fap the hell out of you and watch a lot of legal porn, here's the thing masturbating a lot is bad for you, but at the same time, it will help you not to be so anxious about women because you'll use your hand to satisfy yourself, then when you don't need fapping anymore, just stop doing it for 4 months and you'll be back to normal, but right now I don't think you are in a position to go after girls.
Forget about friends, friends are not necessary, when you grow up you'll be stronger, because you won't be dependent on anyone.
Finish school, study and fap like crazy, and fill your free time with more studying, until you have no time to worry about girls, always be improving.

Good luck

HotHead121 · 2019-04-04T21:36:29+00:00

Check yourself before you wreck yourself

huggyblossom · 2019-04-04T18:40:12+00:00

Any drugs, alcohol addiction? Good family relationships? Bulied in school? Video games ? Porn addiction?

journey2theend · 2019-04-04T18:58:27+00:00

This is not something that will be fixed on the Internet. Go to your local emergency psychiatric intake and get screened by a licensed provider. They will determine whether you need inpatient therapy or whether you are appropriate for outpatient therapy. Constantly thinking about suicide is one step away from suicide. Stop fucking around on Reddit and go get help.

goblinboglin · 2019-04-04T19:40:00+00:00

dude women arent your problem, put that shit aside

focus on yourself, go MGTOW for a while, go monk mode

start working on yourself, pay for some good therapist, they really do help, get your life together, stop being a pussy

ShotgunTRP · 2019-04-04T20:25:56+00:00

A lot of it has to do with you failing at things.

Instead of striding on and breaking out of your comfort zone through these boundaries, you quit go in your cave and self hate

You have to fail a million times and keep banging on

When you start succeeding at shit you failed 100 times you find reasons to take pride in yourself

Kushy_Popcorn · 2019-04-04T19:41:35+00:00

You could use some psychedelics to see things differently. I can tell you've never experimented with them, from the way you're looking at things. Life is precious & beautiful & it's amazing we're here at all. It'll be over soon enough, no need to rush the ending. I hope you feel like the beautiful person with unlimited potential that you are soon.

sebastianconcept · 2019-04-04T23:09:15+00:00

Buddy that's bad. Good you are speaking about this.

Don't let yourself to stay isolated.

Allow people to like you. Hear them more.

You need to refresh or build a good circle of friends.

Bros might be more important than plates.

You need a tribe.

And I aggree that you need go buy "12 Rules for Life" by Jordan Peterson as other guys told you here.

Don't get stuck.

downvotesanimals · 2019-04-05T00:28:55+00:00

TRP is not the place to help with this, brother.

sir_shitfuck · 2019-04-05T05:35:10+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GsxydhFqXug

Watch that man

Kesh4n · 2019-04-05T05:51:11+00:00

Well brother.

This can't love yourself thing most likely stems from something from your childhood, maybe you won't even realize what is causing it. Sit down, go through the moments of your past, analyze your thoughts.

Most likely you had some traumatic event that made you felt unworthy of love, to the point where you lost compassion and love for yourself as well.

Maybe it was one of your parents that made you feel this way, maybe an ex, sibling, classmates, a random berating person on the street. Try to find what caused it and burn that memory / person in your mind.

You have to look in the mirror (literally) deep, and try to find out why people say you should be a model. And find something on yourself that is attractive.

But don't really show someone your true colors, don't give trust out right away because some people do abuse it. Give people time, literally "act" around them.

The people that do grow close to you will sooner or later notice that you are feeling down and if they care for you they will help you.

onionknightofknee · 2019-04-05T07:00:56+00:00

School ain't for everyone. Im rich and failed college multiple times. I wish I realized and stopped trying earlier. School doesn't teach you how to be rich anyway.

People thought I was a fuckup and now wanna learn my business.

You have model look, your youth and energy. Try modelng or acting, gogle trades. There is opportunity out there. Or sales.

Real estate or construction. Start your own company if u have work ethic and drive, or become a union tradesmen.

Dont be ashamed of one thing that's not for you, there are many things u can do

Title	I can't stop thinking about suicide.
Author	Designof
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Date	April 4, 2019 6:31 PM UTC (7 years ago)
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