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This is me. 24 yo, been lifting since I was 19. I don't have any friends. And I'm still a virgin.

I was quite extroverted before high school, had many friends. But then things went downhill.

I was made fun of almost every time I went outside (I have protruding ears, used to have a weird haircut and I'm 5ft5) by classmates and even strangers on the street. I know it's not a big deal, but this happened during my teenage years so my self-esteem took a big hit. I spent school summers locked inside my house playing videogames, crying during most nights. Those wasted years made me socially retarded.

One day I finally had enough. Working out, trying to be more social and outgoing I managed to find new friends. Life was looking better. Still no experience with the opposite sex.

Graduated, I enrolled in the army. Overcame many obstacles, got rid of anxiety. Far away from home, I struggled to make new friends, but this didn't stop me.

I started going out by myself. Going to cinemas, restaurants, shopping centres, discos, martial arts classes, language courses. All this I did it alone. Man, I felt so lonely. I started asking myself.. Why? What's wrong with me that none wants to be my friend?

I felt empty inside. Hated my job, low pay taking orders from other people all day long. Feeling miserable everyday. I wanted to make more money.

With no degree and no skills, I focused on poker. Made a year worth of salary in under six months. Travelled to many places, saw new cities and made new experiences.

Now I'm here, still no friends, despise my job and not knowing what to do next.

I omitted lots of other stuff (family problems mainly) because I don't want to make the post too long. I've never thought I'd make a post like this, but I think you guys are the only ones I can ask for advice in life right now.

Thanks if you've read through all of my post. Sorry if there are mistakes, English is not my first language.