I'm struggling after divorce to understand some red pill truths here. But what I'm struggling with the most is not being able to internalize any of it and actually see myself as the prize instead of the other way around.

Im having some success after divorce with getting attractive women interested, but I still have a nagging impulse that I need to impress them, pursue thrm. How do you get past this bullshit and let them try to impress you?

Its so counter to how I've lived my life and been taught for 25 years that I feel fucking lost now.