I need some words from those of you who have been here.
Almost a month and a half ago I was cheated on. I'm having a hard fucking time with it.
This is not a case of one-itis; I'm thankful she's gone. I have read the sidebar. I know what I should do. I know how to think about this which would be best for me: abundance mentality, not mine just my turn, focus on myself...
But dudes... fuck me do I feel small. I spent 6 years building up a solid-ass relationship with a great girl. She moved across the country to live with me. I know for a fact that I am the best thing that has ever happened to her. We decided to give up alcohol for a month, and on the 25th day I went to a football game with my family, stayed sober the whole time. She went out and got drunk with her boss and fucked him. And I know that she loved it. And I know that she did not give a thought to me.
I have been lifting every day since this happened (I used to compete in powerlifting so this is not new). I have been working my ass off in my career. I have been reading (even reread rational male). I have been spending time with other friends. I have been spending time with family. I gave up caffeine. I have been doing things I love, like hunting and backpacking and a Spartan race.
But when it's just me and my thoughts, I sit the fuck down.
And I can't get back up, boys. It's so personal. I know that it's not. But you know that it is.
I'd like to hear from some folks who have been through it. I can't think my way out. I can't write my way out. I can't read my way out. I can't physically beat it out of me.
What did it take?