Okay. My husband and I had a frank conversation about sex (and you can go back and read some of my posts about sex to get background). But a brief history: we dropped from 2-3 times a week sex to maybe twice a month if I really pushed for it. There were lots of extenuating issues that I can clarify, but I don’t think it is relative to this post.
He said for the duration of our marriage (almost 15 years) I am more silly than sexy and anytime I try to be sexy it is really hot, but I ruin it by being funny/silly. This came out of a conversation regarding an ex bf of mine who treated me like shit. I was very shy and had “daddy issues” and when a guy showed me interest I latched on and ended up in a 5ish year relationship that was (for lack of a better word) toxic. He constantly told me that I couldn’t find any better. And while I broke free of that for the most part, I think I listened to him because deep down I believed it about myself. So fast forward to today and being flirty and sexy isn’t something I see myself as.
Essentially the things I’m trying to overcome are:
I have this baggage where I just do not see myself as sexy. I’m short, fat, and look nothing like what I would consider sexy.
we’ve had issues with sex that reinforced everything I already believed about myself (see point #1). And putting myself out there just is the absolute last thing on my list of things I want to do
As a side note - this issue is not the cause of our sex issues. And in fact I was getting more comfortable with my sexual self before the crap the fan and we stopped having sex.
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