I am a simple guy. I dont need much and like to keep to myself, though i enjoy being social. I am an old soul, which comes with general stereotypes.... i believed in sacrificing for the greater good of others - rarely put myself 1st or 2nd (and yes, this is a problem). i am a good communicator and asked for help thru major things, then minor things..... unfortunately i grew tired and had enough of things. i didnt see the help or growth needed from my stbx.

i initiated. what followed was a complete discard.... if i died right now - the world would be a better place according to stbx.

there is no doubt there has been brain damage to me - the extent? who knows.... but stbx accomplished whatever the mission was except i haven't perished..... yet....

and i still sit here in anguish - thinking i did something terrible and evil. how? just how? maybe that shows the extent of the damage?! i think its more a me problem now.... fml