I have my trial next Tuesday and Thursday. I'm super stressed about it. I dont know if I can refinance enough to keep the house, I'm worried about how much I'll have to pay her (I make 175k to her 28k), and I'm worried about who gets custody. My ex has refused to coparent, the kids GAL has stated she'll recommend I get residential and custodial parent, but even then its up to the judge.

I've worked hard to do the right things for the past year and a half, fought the urge to fight back as she lashed out and tried alienating me from my kids, and it all comes down to hoping that one person sees it my way or at least fairly when they make a decision.

I hate uncertainty and not knowing. This is going to be a rough week.