I’m in the middle of a divorce and the grief is honestly unbearable some days.

I knew it would be hard, but I didn’t understand how physical it would feel.

Constant cortisol, panic in my chest, racing thoughts about losing my kids, money, the future… and then waves of just pure sadness. The kind where you can’t see any way out of it and you just sit there wondering how people survive this.

What’s especially painful is the disconnect between my wife and me.

Someone I shared a whole life and family with now feels emotionally far away, and that alone is devastating. At the same time, I’m trying to manage everything kids, finances, housing, legal stress, daily responsibilities and some days it just feels like more than a person can carry.

What messes with me the most is that life around me keeps going.

My kids are laughing. The sun is out. Normal things are happening.

And inside I feel like something catastrophic, and I don’t see an end in sight .

I’m not posting for legal advice or anything like that.

I just want to know from people who’ve actually been through divorce grief, this is my second one with children and I feel like I may not survive , yet I am a man and a father and drive fwd anyways .

Because right now it feels endless, and even though I’m doing everything I can to stay steady for my kids, there are moments where I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to get through all of this.

I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who made it through this part.