Throwaway account. Been together 6 years. Married for less than two years. No kids. Settled big time. Couldn't exit early and break her heart because I wanted to "be nice." I checked the box of Nice Guy Syndrome to a T.

Instead of exiting early after so many red flags, I lied for years, both to myself and her, about not really finding her attractive because I didn't want to hurt her feelings by thinking I was settling, despite knowing it was true. I deluded myself into thinking she would change. And not just looks. But core personality stuff. She contributed nothing to the relationship, neither money nor housekeeping. I did everything. I was the primary breadwinner AND primary homemaker. It was not a partnership that added additional value to my life, but caretaking, that detracted from flourishing.

Put a retainer on a lawyer today and we're going to file next week. Lawyer says we could reach a good settlement in mediation very easily. I only have about 150k in assets to split with her. Lawyer says due to the marriage being so short-term most judges are reluctant to grant much alimony, except temporarily. I am going to try to buy out her equity to keep the house because she has no income and could never qualify for financing.

For the first time in years, I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

This is my second failed marriage. I am done. I will never let myself get tied down to a woman again. I will never live with anyone ever again. Living with a total slob and hoarder for so many years made me yearn for absolute 100% control over my living space.

I want a sacred space. A fortress of solitude.

I'm going to focus my life on chasing excellence. Spin plates forever. Work on my side-hustle. Build wealth and independence. Finally, for once in my life I am going to put myself first and become an integrated man.