We’ve been together almost 20 years. We have everything we ever wanted and more. We have amazing kids.

But we can’t even talk. Every conversation is a fight. Nothing i do is right. Every fight is an illogical circle of complaints that change from sentence to sentence with no clear meaning.

Worse, she lies. A lot. About how she feels. About the empty bottles of alcohol i find hidden around the house. About concerning behavior with the kids. She just lies, even when theres no need.

I don’t know if i love her anymore or just love what we were. I’m scared what it means for the kids. I’m scared the court will not give me custody even though i could easily single parent - but i’m a man.

I just want out of the BS. I just want to raise my kids and be with them. I just want to be allowed to exist and not live under a microscope. But there’s so much to lose.