I’m sorry if this doesn’t really pertain to TRP exactly, but there are very few like minded communities on Reddit.

My brain is fucked up. I’m aware it doesn’t work how it should, or to the capacity it should aswell as my long term memory being absolutely horrible. I don’t know if this is due to a specific factor or many different factors adding up.

I’m 20 years old, when I think back to being a kid it’s extremely clear something has gone downhill since then. Of course I’m 100 times more Knowledgable and capable, obviously as I’m a full grown man now, but what I’m talking about is different. I don’t really know how to explain it exactly. It’s more akin to my state of being I guess and how my brain works. All I hope for is that it is recoverable.

Maybe it was the pounds of weed I smoked for years as a teenager and vaping, daily porn use since I was like 10 which became hours daily eventually, being chronically glued to a screen, fucking tik tok frying my brain, all these dopamine vices. Or the childhood trauma, I still deal with the same extreme family problems today but handle it much better and as best I can, though I’m probably pre disposed to certain functions having a crazy parent. I also have a horrible diet, maybe all the fucking chemicals I consume are factoring in. And then another massive one, just having not progressed in my life goals at all for such a long period.

I’m not looking for sympathy what so ever. I’m just looking for someone that maybe knows what I’m talking about when I say my mind doesn’t work as it should. And maybe someone who has had luck bringing themselves back from it. Or maybe I just sound nuts, idk.