Why must they continue to lust after women on social media? Why must they continue to use dating apps while you have been together for nearly a year? Why must posters of half naked women line their wall? It’s like the narc is begging me to be jealous. It’s like he is dangling a carrot, and that carrot is what he really wants; and I am merely a placeholder. I feel used and under appreciated and yet I’m deeply in love. Why can’t he just care for me the way I care for him? 😢