I have been following and implementing the RP for a little over a year, married for 3 years. I have made great progress in the gym, got almost completely rid of my social anxiety, I'm making more money and I was a year porn free. Until recently, I slipped back into beta behavior and started watching porn again.

Yesterday, the wife caught me watching porn. She has been thinking that I've been cheating on her for the past 6 months since I started to dress better, have more confidence, girls are looking at me/flirting with me in public etc.

Now, she didn't see me jerking off or even with a hard-on. I was just bored at home browsing some videos that didn't even do that much for me. She came home early, I clicked away the incognito window a little to obviously, she started interrogating me, I told her I was just browsing some tube site, no big deal and she went pretty much nuclear from here.

It's not even about watching porn but because I always told her that 'I don't watch porn' or 'don't jerk off'. To me that was just a white lie, because 99.9% of the guys do it, I just never told her the truth her because she has some low self esteem issues and this is somehow a big deal for her. She sees watching porn basically as cheating...

I realize that I've broken her trust, since I should have told her the truth way earlier (lying about it was basically nice guy behavior). But I'm unsure of what to do next, keep it red pill and brush it away as 'no big deal' or going more beta and telling her how sorry I am, how I'm going to work on my 'problem' and that it will never happen again (another white lie).