As I read more and more here, my old reality crumbles beneath me at an ever faster rate.

I just read this:

The Cock Carousal: Like the horses on a carousal going up and down, a woman on the CC jumps from cock to cock as the wheel goes round. Our society encourages women to jump on as many Alpha cocks as she can find in her 20’s to satisfy the Alpha Fucks while she is then encouraged to “settle down” in her 30’s with the same type of man that she sneered at, ignored, and belittled in her 20's). As the Wall approaches the CC rider suddenly decides that she is no longer a slut. Now she is a born-again virgin and her new boyfriend, a niiice guy who makes good money is not going to get sex on the first date, or the 2nd or the 5th. Nope, she needs to establish this new relationship where she rations the sex in order to control her husband. She settles for a Beta Buck who can never excite her like all the hawwwt guys she could never get to commit. She throws sex at her Beta pet for months or years, as long as it takes, and then it tapers off, usually to twice a month, often beginning on the Honeymoon.

Fuck. I am that guy. She's late 20's, fucked all the Alphas, and now has her good boy. How did I not see this.

So help me out here. I'm not a player. I've honestly never been interested in bedding hundreds of women, don't ask why, it doesn't really matter. But the woman I am with, I want to absolutely rail her and have all my desires met. Am I just a delusional idiot? What's going on?

I've mentioned in another post that within just a couple of days of discovering the red pill and actually starting to see what's happening, sex with her has been crazy. I've savaged her. She loved it. She did things she never came close to doing before (with me, not others) , full slut mode activated.

Is it possible that I can have this late 20's girl, remold her idea that she found her "beta" to settle with, and be the Alpha who fucks her like no man ever could? Or is this a lost battle? I'm 6 years younger ffs.... There is a lot of pussy out there. But as I said before I'm not really drawn to nailing a whole array of women, however I do want to be nailing a woman that is craving the cock, not someone who has settled into beta baby making mode.

I'm rambling. So much information flooding my mind. Seriously confused at the moment but trying to grasp.