I am literally learning everything the hard way. I have fallen in love with a girl, and its killing me. I'm obsessed with checking her Twitter account every fucking day..(this has become a serious problem because she is ALWAYS on twitter and so it makes me want to check it out every second of the day) And Its because i KNOW I can't trust her. I can't seem to let her go. Every time I try, something pulls me back to her.

She wants me in her life. I even told her that I love her. But she keeps throwing me away with her actions. I feel compelled to help her and hope that she will turn her act around bc there is some very strong connection that I feel with her. Yet she keeps doing shady shit. She told me she wants to start over, just as friends at first. Here's the thing. I KNOW what you all will say. I know I'm supposed to dread game her. It doesn't work with this one though. She has this ability to numb herself from pain because of her dark past. Her ability to do this causes every bit of dread game to not even phase her. She will endure through the storm and move on like nothing. Her game is so strong, and holding frame around her can be near impossible sometimes because its either her way or nothing. I just have intensely strong feelings for her. I almost hate that I love her. It's like she always gives me just enough to hold on. She's gonna corrupt the fuck out of my mind and break my heart over and over and I just don't know how to move on. I've never told you guys about this and if anyone could just give me some kind of perspective to look at this. I just feel like you can't help who you love. And I'm committed to loving this girl through anything. But its breaking me. I feel so weak about this. I feel like this is what the red pill was created for, so I'm asking for help. I need a full breakdown. Thanks