At 27 years old I finally lost my virginity (Apologies for the long wall of text!!! I am just on cloud 9 right now.... : )

For the first half of my twenties I was stuck in this horrible cycle of learned helplessness. I would spot a cute girl and think something like "no way she would ever dig me", not even try talking to her and walk home all depressed. I finally got fed up with it, I realized that I wasn't so helpless after all, I quit porn and stared talking to real life chicks. I honestly thought years were gonna go by before I had this experience.

I had been approaching for 6 months up until now with not a lot of success. A bunch of numbers, hella flakes and a few dates that didn't really go anywhere. Nonetheless I had gotten a lot of reference experiences and learned through that. I got better at improvising conversation, pushing my comfort zone & probably most importantly, kino! As an introvert I always shied away from touching girls, it's never gonna feel right at first you just have to go for it.

What's funny is that I never thought I would say it, but I owe some of this success to tinder. I matched with this girl and we hit it off. I got her number and asked her out to a coffee/beer garden type place. The day of I cancelled an hour before because I was in the process of looking for a new place. I honestly didn't think she would care because all the girls I met before didn't. She seemed upset. Could this girl have actually wanted to see me? Crazy I know. I texted her if we could reschedule for Friday. She texted back "ok. possibly"

Friday comes and I text her if we're still on for today. She texts back that she wasn't sure really & didn't like me cancelling at the last second without explanation. I texted back sorry and explained, I ended with "I understand if you don't wanna see me". She seemed understanding and said she was still down if I was. I said I was.

I arrive at the venue, walk up and see her coming in from the side. We see each other and wave, I greet her with a hug and jokingly say "I'm sorry, I'm such an asshole" She says that I'm fine and not to worry about it. We both get a drink and sit outside on a picnic table.

We start chatting about a bunch of different things. It was great because she was pretty chatty, I didn't have to worry about what to say next, I could just listen and give great eye contact.

After a while I ask if I can read her sign as an excuse to hold her hands. She was pretty receptive to it, good eye contact and flirting.

We let go and talk for a little longer. I reach out my hands again and she places hers in them. I say "this feels too much like an interview, I want you to come sit next to me." (Shoutout to Daniel Blake for that tip), she is hesitant at first but agrees. Next to each other now I play with her arm and ask about her tattoos. We talk some more, I am super nervous about expressing to her what I want, but I know I need to. Her profile had said 10/10 at cuddling, I ask her about it and say something like "let's put that to the test" as I put my arm around her. She was extremely receptive to it. She leaned in hard, snuggled up to me, started playing with my arm and holding hands. I'm rubbing her arm and back, she rubs my arm back. I tell her she's making me feel weird down there, she laughs.

A little more of this and I ask if can I look at her, she turns her head towards me and I lean in for a kiss. Again very receptive, she kisses me back and moans. After a couple rounds she says "I like kissing you", I'm thinking 'wait what?', this never happens...

I then ask her "what do you say we get outta here?" she says that would be nice, I jokingly say we should go shop for condoms at the grocery store across the street, she laughs. She offers to give me a ride over there where I'm parked, I fondle her thigh on the drive over. I go in, get the condoms and get in my car praying that she didn't ditch me. I drive around to where she's parked, she's still there. I pull up beside her and tell her to follow me. I'm about 5 minutes away. I'm kind of freaking out because although my apartment wasn't atrocious, it definitely wasn't looking too nice either. I feared she was gonna see it and then leave, all the more reason to keep your shit clean.

We get there, I tell her I'm in the process of moving, she says she doesn't mind the clutter. She sits down on my love seat and at first wants to hear me play guitar. I oblige and impress the living bajeezus out of her. She claps and then starts fondling my leg as I'm playing. I put down the guitar and she curls up to me with her head on my crotch. I tell her I have a friend in my pants that wants to meet her, she knows what I'm hinting at. I unzip and she starts to jerk me off. She sits up and looks at me, I tell her to come here. We make out more and I'm grabbing and squeezing her ass. She wants to know if we can go somewhere with more room. I suggest the bedroom, we just lie together at first, cuddling with my dick out. She says it's hot and asks if she can take her dress off (yeah like I'm gonna object to that lol). She's gotta a pretty sexy lace bra on, she lies against me, I fondle one boob, then both boobs, I guess her cup size and I guess right ;) - she's moaning pretty hard now and I reach one hand into her bra and feel the actual boob, to which she responds "this bra comes off 'ya know..." : )

Unstrapping a girls bra and I get it right on my very first time. I start to suck her nipples, I reach down into her panties and start fingering her, she is pretty wet. She tells me to put one of the fingers I had inside her into her mouth. I do and she sucks it very passionately. I tell her I got something else for her to suck on ; )

She takes her panties off, suggests I get naked too and then starts to blow me. I tell her to stop after about 30 seconds, that's she's gonna make me come too fast (I had been on about a 90 day nofap streak up until this point) - She moves up towards me and we start kissing again, her naked pelvis was rubbing my naked dick and that moment I splooged. I tell her I had just come and she says that she would've swallowed (great, now she tells me...)

I tell her I can go again, I struggle to put the condom on and she's asks if this is my first time, fearing that she would've been mean about it I say "pffft no"

It was an amazing experience - Fucking a real live human female, missionary, looking deep into her eyes and her telling me she wanted me to cum inside her.

It was a night to remember, I couldn't believe it but she was telling me that I was sexy, funny and that she wanted my hard cock. All of this did wonders for my confidence...

And for my first time fucking, I was kind of impressed with my thrusting abilities. She said it was nice to get fucked by someone muscular and in shape. I started going to the gym, looks like it's helped... : )

Afterwards, I asked her if we could be fuck buddies, she said 'possibly'. We hugged goodbye and she left.

I woke up to find she left her necklace at my place, assume attraction - She probably left it on purpose as to have a reason to come over and get fucked again....

Anyways, just wanted to say thanks to you guys and thanks for reading...