Wife said it’s over and express everything I asked for into a letter. I asked her to please be vulnerable and honest with me, what was going on. She wants out. I tried to fight for any sort of counseling she said she’d go but she still wants to move on with the separation/divorce? I started looking for a small house and nor apt and I don’t know how I’ll afford living on my own. Not to mention I have to look for a soulless job that makes more money. Apt in my area has nothing listed under $1300. I found one that was a studio 475 square ft for like 900 and it’s disgusting. I don’t know if I could live with a roommate at 50 nor know anyone. Even if we sell our house that money will help move and cover some expenses. I don’t know if I can do it.