To keep it short, I [34] and my wife [33] got married 3.5 years back and we know each other from 5 years. After about 6 months in our marriage I got to know that she was fixated on a guy during her teens. It was one sided as she was not able to relay her feelings to him. This led her into severe depression which converted into OCD and psychotic behaviour. Psychiatrist gave her ECT's to help her stabilize. Things got better, she finished her degree and all, got better mentally. 5 years back we met through an acquaintance. We clicked very well. We had good sex, we were happy, it was all love. She proposed me for marriage. But she and her parents never told me about her illness until we got married.

After knowing this I lost my control, got super angry. We had fights, she kept talking and thinking about him. And boom, after 6 months in our marriage, she got another psychotic attack where she lost touch of the reality. It was in 2018. I kept calm during her treatment. When that phase ended she blaimed me for everything, sex was gone, we rarely hugged or kissed. I was very much depressed. To give it second chance I started searching internet and landed on RedPill and MRP. Read NMMNG, MAP, MMSLP, joined a gym, got a better job, dressed pretty well. Read the sidebar.

Good things came back partially I would say. And then COVID happened. She went to her ailing mother to take care for her. She was with her family for 4 months, without any physical contact with me due to lockdown. Once lockdown lifted, we rented a new house and shifted. But this time things were very different, she was into a different state of mind. She acted as if I dont exist, she was doing her own things, talking to herself, looking at walls for hours and what not. Two weeks back she told me that she dont want to live with me and left me. She went to her parent's house. Without listening my part her parents fought with me for treating her daughter like that. It really freaked me out, I threw my house keys there and left. ( I rented a single room for myself for the time being)

I am not able to comprehend what wrong I did and what can be my plan of action now. I really love her. I know divorce is an option here but my heart and mind is going against it.

P.S: As per her recent diagnosis, her psychosis has developed into schizophrenia. From past 14 years she's on medication. Also, she has never contacted or tried talking to that guy. It was just one sided fixation.