I'm 31. Together with wife for 10 years. I've been lurking here sporadically on some different accounts. I've read the game as a young boy and always thought of it as a nice trick book to meet women. And it was.

But now I've got MS (disease). For about 5 years now. The up-and-down shifts have been hard. I had gone full bluepill and relied on my wife to carry me emotionally, while I "carried" her. Ofcourse this led to a deadbedroom, lots of fights (mostly my beta ass trying to get her approval and support)

For the last year, however, I've been going hard on improving my physical health for my illness, my daughters, my wife and family. The goal was being in control. And it has helped. My illness has a much brighter outlook than previously.

But my wife was not falling for it. She remained in control. I flaunted with my progress but remained in the beta mindset. My wife kept keeping me in check. 2 weeks ago I quit smoking weed and jacking off, 1 week ago I quit smoking cigarettes. I am in control.

Last week I truly understood the red pill reference for the first time. I've bought NMMNG yesterday. I'm here to get and keep a good frame, not because I need motivation to go forward.

I decided to post a starting-post here now, since my eventual goal might be to help other chronically ill people to be in control of their lives. Getting dumped for a disease is fucked up. But then again, I'd say it's just equally fucked up as you dont get a break from being the oak

Yesterday my wife said "Thank you for ignoring your MS". I've been on the way of trying to ignore it for a year now. I just started ignoring her shittests for the last 2 weeks and passed a comfort test and apparently she just caught on. Still she did not suck my d*ck afterwards. So here I am.