Double messages, so just asked the STBX to terminate (2nd time, separated since Oct, said wanted to terminate Mid Nov, but talked into one more try).

Through this group I learned about "No more mr nice guy" and Rollo Tomassi. I was able to vent my story and woes to strangers in a safe space. I was able to see lots of guys in the exact same spot as me, and guys that had been divorced and come out better on the other side. I was able to read stories where I would clear say "hold s&it ball mans, what is wrong with you, get the f&ck out of there," while laughing cause I'm posting the same stories :)

I only have one male friend that's not family. And while family have been hugely supportive (it appears lots of people has issue with my marriage but didn't want to say anything until after we separated _) and friendship is great (he's like a brother to me). I know they are biased.

I know this group has it's biases too, but they are biases towards brotherhood and breaking the cycle of abuse / hate / depression; that so many of us are in.

So from one random internet keyboard to another. I just want to say how much I have appreciated this group and everyone that has posted here.

Thank you all. Be safe out there.