Besides not being masculine looking, I don't have the mindset or mentality to be a man who leads. Feel like a degenerate waste of space and hate myself.

Can't even try pickup game, or approaching like redpillers say, it's just not who I am. Part of me just wants to kill myself, but I know it's just something I say and too much of a coward to do it.

I've always hated the way I look, and want to look like an actual man, fuck genetics. Want a mulligan, fuck working with the hand I was dealt, want to burn every card dealt to me with a lighter.