Like the title says, the more I swallow the pill, the less women interest me in general.

I had a few plates going recently, and I had about 5-7 more women who were lined up to become plates. But the more I think about it, the more I just allow those connections to expire. They aren't worth the trouble. It isn't even worth it just for the sex. Because when I really think about it, they don't really have anything of value to me. They aren't much fun, or interesting, usually not that smart. "Oh, really? you think astrology is equally useful for explaining the world as science? and you don't read the news because it's all made up? And you think history is boring? Please, do go on." Rarely can I meet a woman who can teach me something I don't already know, or be intellectually stimulating.

This is a real contrast for me. When I was younger, I was obese, and I had very low self-esteem, probably in part to a narcissistic, borderline-personality psycho mother, and a very disinterested, distant father. In my mind, every chance I had to be with a girl, might be the last chance I'd ever have. I started losing weight, getting in shape - and I started getting this attention, but i maintained my old blue pill ways. I was very purple pills, I guess, and while I put women up on a gigantic pedestal, I would still escalate with every single girl like my life depended on it, and this persistence got me a number of women. I felt like it was a measure of self-worth or accomplishment, and those first few precious hours after a new woman accepted me sexually gave me that special feeling that we all chase but never find, for more than a few moments.

This was years ago. More recently, I'm established, good job, much smarter, but I'm starting to just not to care. I don't care if I fuck a new girl or not, I'm becoming more or less psychologically apathetic. And getting a girlfriend seems to be more trouble than it's worth. A lot of you seem to have a very romanticized impression of how women are abroad. I live abroad in a non-western country and the women are still nuts. Because of the culture of the place where I live, day game is not something that is really done, and while I speak the local language I don't speak it well enough to be smooth. I can converse, but not eloquently.

The easiest way is online, and curiously, all women are online here. The vast majority of their profiles (80%+) say something to the effect of, "Only serious men. If you aren't looking for something very serious, then fuck off, don't bother me. You must have a high paying job, a car, a house, love God, love your family, not smoke, not drink, not be a sex pervert, not use foul language, and you must be ready to commit." And I don't know where they get this smugness from. What do they bring to the table? They know how to cook and do laundry? Great, so do the billion other women on this continent. And I do my own laundry. Your only non-sexual asset can be replaced by a take-out menu, and you demand Prince Charming? And every last one of them has the same identical list of bitchy requirements and things they think that men owe them.

If you do manage to get their attention, this will be half of their questions (Note - this is already after you explain that you are single): "Do you have a girlfriend? You probably have a girlfriend. I saw a picture of you with a woman [friend/colleague/acquaintance] she must be your girlfriend. You probably get lots of attention from women. There are lots of easy women here. How many girlfriends do you have? Why are you interested in me if you already have a girlfriend?" This shit is so insulting honestly because it's a passive way of calling me a liar and I don't stand for that. Or they tend to search for every opportunity to make something into a passive aggressive battle. If they message you online when they know you're at work, and busy, and you don't answer for a while, then they'll start to say "What's the matter? You don't want to talk to me? I see. Well, take care. I won't bother you any more, don't worry. Good luck in your life."

So I just let my contacts expire. Not worth the trouble. Just gonna worry about me and not even think about sex because these girls are honestly not worth the time.

Edit: A lot of people are asking me where I am. I'm in a former USSR country. щнат тнэ fцск, яфgнт? Also, thanks to everybody for posting their replies. It's very interesting and helpful to get your perspectives, seems like we're all more or less in the same boat.