I'm 24. I reached a point back in May where I basically had to admit to myself that i suck ass with girls, as i have never had a girlfriend and never successfully even got a girl interested in sex on the spot. My flirting and social game was essentially trash. I had a wake up call in May when school was letting out when a couple bro's in my apartment were giving me encouragement and votes of confidence in me that if i went out there during the parties and shenanigans, there should be no reason why i couldn't bring a fine lil 19 year old soph or something home for some fun. I realized that they believed in me, but I didn't believe in myself. I also realized, after a lot of thinking, that girls are already at least partially interested in you by virtue of you having a penis. They WANT to see you just be the most confident and charming version of yourself you can.

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So I've had to really put blinders on to any negative thoughts, stop taking selfies, stop critiquing myself in the mirror, and just live through my eyes and go out there with a smile and confidence every day. Since realizing this (and quitting or at least severely limiting porn), i've had more comfortable conversations with girls, i lost my phone recently and a girl offered to call me to see if it rang. Later on when i saw her again she and another girl were asking if i found it. These seem like baby steps, but they are the foundations of what I need in order to game and honestly that is just being able to seem normal enough yet interesting enough to sustain the attention of women.

Couple girls at my job have been flirting with me, i keep getting looked at by this one cashier girl, and the other day some hot as fuck sophomore or freshman babe walked by with another girl, saw me, smiled and said hey. I just smiled in my boyish way yet with that extra touch of "i want to fuck you" in my eyes and said hey back, what was i gonna do chase her? But I have to be grateful for the steps along the journey.

I'm high as hell rn so sorry if this sounds disorganized or like it's written by a 12 yr old, but it's straight from the soul and wondering if it resonates with anyone else. Thanx