I've reached my yearly quota and somehow got a date this year. 10/10 perfect angel but being me of course I fumbled the bag, there will be no 2nd date.

I just can't get her out of my head, mostly the fear that I'll never find anyone as good as her again. Like and anger decided to have mercy on me to realise I'm a horrible person I guess and backtracked. Should have enquired even more about her past, future and hobbies.

How do I let go? Every girl I've gone on a date with lingers in my head for at least a year and I start imagining a life I of course can no longer have. The fear that this is it, the next one will be a downgrade cause I'm getting older doesn't help.