Hey,

i was on date recently, and i slept bad, had a lot of stress in work and i was quite close to old myself.

I was sterile, friendly, laughing at every joke, watching her and taking into account everything what she says, ultimate gentleman and friendzone material.

In the past i was always like this. I met girl. Somehow i managed her to get her to date. And at the date i was always thinking what i say next, i used too much parfume, i used best clothes and i was not even farting and i had pain in stomach.

I cared too much. I felt like i am on exam in school. I almost didn't even "experienced" the date. I was in my head all the time, if i am dirty, if i am attractive, if she have fun etc.

After i had very bad break up, i meditated a lot and learn to "let go". I currently most of the time trying to emulate something between hank moody and tyler durden.

I don't care and i am playfull, cocky, i fart i have fun, i tease her. And then i go into more "dominant,sexual" side, where i talk much less and i leave it to "energy/body language".

Difference between day and night. When i was recently my old self i almost fumbled total hottie. I can still fail, i can still fall into my old ways. You too.