Discovered red pill: 1 year ago Sidebar: nearly all, many items multiple times Lifting: Off and on due to injuries, no real progress Ages: me 42, wife 40 Married: 18 yrs. Kids: 0

I have been applying MRP concepts to my marriage for a while now and I see some significant improvements but I just don't think she can ever become the person I want her to be. I know that continuing through the dread levels can improve things, but there are just too many things that would have to radically change for me to really be attracted to her and to desire spending time with her.

The problem is that I am worried that if I decide to divorce that she will slip back into a deep depression. She has had this happen twice before and is on anti-depressants. I know that she would be an absolute wreck without me and I'm even worried that she may be a danger to herself. I do care about her; she is a kind person with a good heart and I would feel terrible guilt if her life was destroyed after I left.

Has anyone felt the same way? I appreciate any ideas or new perspectives for me to consider.