Gonna lay this bare for you guys because its something I have personally struggled with for about six months. Shared with BPP over privmsg on whats going. Can't put my finger on it.

Blow Jobs

I enjoy them, she enjoys them. She takes pride and it's her thing to do them to completion. Even at times openly complaining when I stop her because I want to fuck. Part of the problem is I have fed into them. Dirty talk, rough, throating, praising her highly. One time I literally grabbed her buy the hair and made her choke. All she did was work extra hard to please. She wears them like a badge of honor. We do other things too and overall the sex life is very satisfying, so I am in what we call a Seinfeld Dilemma. She likes them, I like them, and it's always that one more thing that's lacking or whatever.

I came home for two days after being gone for awhile and as soon I was in the door she immediately swallows and doesnt let me stop her. Sits back on her heels and says that's almost too much but I didn't miss a drop. You taste really good when you've been gone. All that jazz and prancing through the house the rest of the night.

The second night, we don't hit the sheets until much later in the night. We get to doing our thing and we are going at it and out of the blue she says let me taste you fresh. So she does it and that's cool.. Really it was very good and she does these things to me that make the sheets crawl up my ass.

The conundrum

Realistically, my ratio is probably One vaginal to Three mouths. I prefer vaginal and we adjust to her moods. The days of only cave man are long over. DEVI is in full effect and I have pretty much hit my stride. She openly tells me I can have them anytime I want.

Why?

My first impression is I have highly praised something she really enjoys. Found her niche and encouraged it. Everything I want to do is no questions asked and completely enthusiastic. She even remarks that I like it when she doesn't and that makes her cum harder. No different than anything else in life. Reward good, Discourage bad.

My second guessing is something is wrong in my fucking game. Too hard? Too soft? Didn't find the right things? She knows I like pussy and she does that. Probably something to do with her wanting to please and yet control it at the same time.

Probably, in my airport late night flight I just want someone to tell shut the fuck up and quit bitching.