this yourselves for the most pathetic 4 months of my life. Separate account im posting with because of shame.

My friend (friend A) and this girl were in a relationship for around 2 years. At the time she broke up with him me and her started hanging out a lot, I was unaware that they had broken up. We would spend everyday together, she would call me to hangout in the morning and that was my alarm clock. We did everything together, basically inseparable. Long story short she rejected me 4 times. After these 4 rejections which happened all in the space of a week or two she started dating one of my friends (friend B). Friend B knew I liked her and was also friends with friend A, whom was very depressed about the breakup. I just said that I was happy that they were happy together. But I wasn’t. I began to have a subtle dislike for my friend, we weren’t the same since they started dating. At one point they fucked on my bed while I was taking a shower. Later after she broke up with friend B she moved to friend C. He claimed he didn’t want anything to do with her yet they made out in my laundry room when I threw a party. Prior to the laundry room makeup there was a night out. That night out friend C begged me to stay with him because he didn’t want to be alone with the girl and he told me to interfere if she tried to makeup with him. This resulted in me crying on the floor because she kicked me in the balls so hard I could barely even breath and then tried to push me down the stairs. Despite all this we still facetimed every night (morning for her now because of timezone diff) up until about an hour ago where she told me that she had a crush on friend D, whom is friend A’s only friend in the world and Friend C’s younger brother. He was a little timid about the situation with her but she told him that “Friend A doesn’t have to know”.

Now I’m sitting here thinking that I have no real friends, I’m a betafag and that I can’t trust women. I feel broken and lost and very upset, so much that the only thing I could think to do is come to redpill and see what to do about this situation. I’m lost guys, I don’t know what to do anymore.