I'm sitting here with what I know is depression pumping through my veins, 5k in the bank, no debt, totally lost..

My last job was working with adults to had intellectual disabilities and I couldn't handle it as a whole. I was spat on, chased, grabbed, shoved, had poo thrown at me, the lot. And it was almost every day.

I'm completely lost now, no direction at all, I don't know where to begin looking or what to look for. I can't even see friends cause I have none. Fuck.

Feeling overwhelmed and existential again. Sucks man.

I lift through the week and can put on the social mask but that's about all I can do lately.