Soooo, I have a friend (male) who I haven’t spoken to in over a year who used to like me and I kind of liked him too. But we were always just friends and it never went anywhere. Aside from that, we actually had genuine connection even as friends and liked talking to each other a lot and I miss that. He was my kind of person and someone who I valued as a friend because he was different in a way that I could relate to (not like a cool girl way) but I just really liked his personality and his interests. He was also the masculine to my quite feminine energy, which I savored, quietly. He was protective and caring in ways some of my (ex) girl friends never were.

I know that quarantine probably has something to do with it but I’ve low-key missed them even before that because we had a lot of fun together, even though we weren’t dating or romantic in any sense.

He was rude to me at the end though, I don’t know if this is because he couldn’t find any way to express his interest towards me using his big boy words, or what. But he called me a name and I was so taken aback from it, because he had never insulted me like this before and even reassured me when I would talk about it, that I wasn’t what he eventually called me.

I am a woman and FDS has helped me find contacting a man first repulsive. He was the last one to contact me and I never answered him and I still have some of his contact information. And it’s his email. Ugh. I’m disgusted. Ladies, please help me from myself.

Thank you, loves.