today would have been 19 years of marriage.

she left about 8 months ago.

in some ways I feel like I'm making progress but today is kind of a little upsetting.

I know all of this is beyond my control entirely. But it still hurts sometimes.

It's really not even that terrible relationship anymore as much as it is just the breaking of the marriage covenant and how it affects the kids.

mostly how it affects the kids and she just doesn't give a shit.

I can see how damn selfish she is.

It doesn't even make me angry as much as it just makes me sad.