I thought it would destroy me but all I felt was a twinge and that surprised me. The more I think about it the more I roll my eyes. She's still married and still texting me wanting to "come to an understanding" yet has already moved in with him and his kid. We have nothing left to understand, no kids or assets left to split and the reasons for the divorce are clear and mutual. There's a reason she wants to keep me on the burner and understanding ain't it. I feel for the dude but I am so happy it's not me this time. Therapy has taught me to put myself first and get settled in my new life before trying to involve other people in it and I am so thankful for that lesson. Just imagining enmeshing myself on that level with someone in a situation like that makes me shudder. I'll take emotional stability for 1000 please Alex.

I have been feeling like I am ready to start dating but have been going back and forth. I was worried when this moment came it would make me want to jump right in and lose myself in someone but it doesn't. It does the opposite actually. I want a solid relationship built on mutual respect and love grown over time. I want someone I truly know and can trust. I want someone that will add to the life I've built for myself. I have to actually build that life before any of that can happen and I'm looking forward to that journey. It's going to have an amazing payoff at the end.

I thought this would be an impactful day when it happened. Turns out it's just Wednesday. I have this sub to thank for that. You guys rock.