Things were going great for me. I’m finally starting the renovation of the new place. It’s exciting and scary at the same time since I know it’ll look great once it’s done but renos never go as planned. I had to go back to the STBXW’s place since all the tools are there. While I was there, I tried to help my son troubleshoot why he couldn’t play his online game on an old Dell I had there. It took 3 hours to troubleshoot, install the right OS, etc. The whole time I had to listen to the STBXW talking and laughing with the kids. I came back tired, lonely, missing my wife and kids, etc. I know tomorrow I’ll be in a better state but I needed to get how I’m feeling off my chest so I can sleep. No need to respond. I’m just glad there’s a place to vent when I need to.

Edit 7/17/2020: They say it’s like a rollercoaster, ups and downs. That was a low. I starting to go back up as expected. I did a lot of work in the new place and the painters are now in and should be done by Monday. I figured out how to make up height difference between the flooring for when I put down LVP next week (a big win for me) and I spent the afternoon with my daughter. The only bad part of today was that I watch GoT season 3, Ep 9. No spoilers but WOW didn’t see that coming. Thanks for all comments. I’m not so much more the loss of my wife as much as the loss of the old times as a family. I know I need to create the new times with my kids. Once the new place is finished Things will be a lot better.