So I was driving home from worship practice last night and decided to listen to the song Against All Odds by Phil Collins. It’s a song that I listened to right after she left me over a year ago and it tore me up pretty bad back then. Anyway, I did shed a few tears, but it wasn’t as bad as it used to be. Although, there are songs that I know I’m not ready to listen to yet at all. I guess I’m still kind of stuck in a place just not understanding why. I’ve posted about and completely acknowledge that life is about accepting as things are and not how I would like them to be. I really do believe that getting back together with her as she is now would be a complete disaster. But when I don’t have my kids here, I get incredibly lonely sometimes.