But guess what. It will. I owe it to this community of internet strangers a lot. alot of support, hope, cammaraderie....I was so desperate 5 years ago. I couldn´t envision life getting any better. It was all darkness. I joined Reddit because of this sub. Desperately looking for "it gets better" posts just to have a glimmer of hope. Feel free to stalk my profile.

So many of you here helped me out. So now, with tears in my eyes because I dreamt for so long to be able to write this post, I can tell you; it can get better. You will not feel like this for the rest of your life. It´ll take time, work and pain, but you will get to the other side. My life is not perfect by any means, but I´m happy and stronger and wiser. I´m OK with where I am right now.

My advice; don´t drink. If you do, get sober. Work out. You don´t have to "hit the gym". Go over to r/bodyweightfitness and get a workout you can do in your bedroom. I know, you are too depressed right now for that. Well, take a walk around the block. Then two. Go from there.

Eat well. Get some sleep. Work out. Meditate. Try to engage in things you love. I know, you ight be too depressed for that. Try to do it anyways. Go to therapy. If it doesn´t work, well, look for another therapist. Again, get sober if you aren´t. Go over to r/stopdrinking . Lots of awesome people there as well who will welcome you with open arms.

Look up "radical acceptance". It worked for me.

It will get better if you put in the work. It might get worse before it gets better. But it will get better.

Again, 5 years ago, I dreamed about making this post. It´s a very emotional and special moment doing it. It´s a closure I needed. I clearly remember reading one of this "it will get better" posts and having the hope of writing my own one day. And here I am. Please feel free to DM me. I might not answer right away. But here I am. I want to give back all I got from the amazing men in this community.

Thanks to you all. I couldn´t have gone through this shit without you, bunch of internet strangers. Peace and love.