I tried guys…I just can’t anymore.

We’ve been co parenting for almost 2 years now. 50/50.

Today in court I officially gave up my time and I’m sticking to visitation. 1 weekend a month. I make way more money than she does - I don’t mind paying the child support.

We were together 15 years, married for 10 and we had 3 beautiful kids.

For 10 years I’ve been a dad. And for those 10 years I was great at it. I did everything with them. Took them to the park 3-4 times a week, store runs, play parks, homework everyday and summer packets, doctor’s appointments. I spent more time with my kids than my ex wife, but it doesn’t mean she was a bad mother.

For the 2 years of co parenting - they go to the park by themselves while I stay home. I hardly pay attention to them, forget hw, keep them home a lot and we go to my sisters almost every weekend.

I miss them everytime they are gone, and then mourn my old marriage when they are with me. I can’t for the life of me separate father and husband. It’s like husband was my foundation to being a good dad….I’m just never there mentally with them and I know it’s affecting them.

I hate this so bad. But for the well being of my kids it’s what’s best for them.