I considered it, but it failed because while I worked on my shortfalls (sobriety included) she remained the same exact person that discarded and I NEVER I repeat NEVER got past being plan B and knowing I could:

1.) Be better on my own 2.) Deserved better

Lesson: DON’T reconcile

After thought: In her eyes not reconciling puts the dissolution as “my fault” and believe me she will use it with kids, “babies I tried.” (Even though she went back with AP)