So this is my second week after she asked for a divorce. It’s not as hard but still a rather nagging emotion in the background of my day until I get home and it’s still there. She hasn’t moved out and probably won’t for a few months due to financial reasons for both of us. We have three kids, one being my stepson that I’ve raised since he was one. She is allowing me to have 50% custody of him as well.

Been doing a journal to pour out my feelings so that I don’t try and “win” her back. That doesn’t work out fellas. I’ve “won” her back twice now but she still wants to leave. Once that feeling is there just let them go. You deserve better.

I just wish I could get the nightmares to stop though. Can’t stop my unconscious from being overwhelmingly sad.