Well gentlemen, I lost my court case to uphold the TRO against my wife for punching my child because there were no bruises. This means that she is going to move back in and feel very empowered.

I'm not moving out of the marital home for a few more months, but the dark/deep depression is setting in hard. There is no connection with her anymore & that is OK with me, I'm over her - but losing my house and family is fucking devastating.

She has told my friends, kids school teachers and her family that I've been abusing her for years. This is not true & to be accused of it feels so shameful, even without any history of it. It's a very dirty move on her part & my friend's wives all believe her. My social circle is crumbling around me.

Haven't slept well in days (3hrs each night), the sleep pills are not working. I'm so afraid for my children's safety that my subconscious is keeping my mind racing in search of a better solution - but my conscious mind realizes I'm fucked.