so I met my SO few years ago and before the lockdown started, he invited me to his place and it was so dirty and messy. first the comforter looked ike it hasn't been washed in years, and clothes were just thrown in wardrobe. bathroom was so dirty along with mess in kitchen.

I felt pity but also at the same time, it made me rethink about him. I, personally never invite someone when my place is dirty and its bit disrespectful to the guest but guess he wasn't. Now thinking back, I realized how he didnt like me and it conveyed on little things like this. he asked to split the bill when I was visiting him also. shouldn't you be ashamed of showing your place like in this condition if you really like your SO and wants to look good infront of them? do you think I'm overthinking this? Because if the guy really likes a girl, would he show his flaw? I dont think so.

I clearly liked him for his looks as he was the most good looking guy(he looks like a high fashion model with 6,3 wide shoulder in slim body and distinct jaw line face, German ) I ever met or seen and he was just finishing his studies. Its harsh to say this but now, I can see why his ex dumped him despite him being way better looking than her. it made me really rethink about him as a person rather than just a guy I'm sexually attracted to and if I want to be with him in longer period as a partner.