Noob here. Background... married for 34. 2 kids. 1 out of house, one at home, but not for much longer (she's 17). I'm 55, wife's 57. She's been a SAHM for 30 yrs. I'm 100% the breadwinner. I was a BP beta bitch from the beginning and my wife is bit of a control freak. Controlling bitch? Every once in a while, but not most of the time. But she sometimes treats me as an inferior. However, I really haven't stepped up to be the leader I need to be, so I don't completely blame her.

I discovered trp and mrp a couple of weeks ago, and have decided to take control of my life. Even though, at 55, I'm getting a late start, what I've found so far has been VERY eye opening, and I can't just continue in my BP ways. I have been a BP beta bitch for a long time, so it will not likely be a quick process, and I expect numerous setbacks. I used to be alpha in a few areas of my life, mostly sports. My interactions with women, though, has always been completely beta BP.

My wife is about 70lbs overweight. I'm probably about 20 over. My smv is not that great, but hers is worse. Compared to other men my age, though, I'm at least above average. Most of the other men in our subdivision have huge beer guts. I was at this weight a couple of years ago, and lost it, so I know I can do it again. I'm going to start fixing myself, and start slowly applying dread over the coming months and years. I'll never catch the eye of that 22 yr old HB9 at Hooters, but that's not my goal anyway. My goals are to fix myself, and in the process fix our sex life, which isn't completely dead, but it's on life support. About once every two weeks.

I still love her, and for years I dared not rock the boat for fear of the consequences. The big difference now though is, even though I still love her, I'm willing to walk away. If she gets half my stuff, I'll still be OK. I can be happy with far less than she can. My goal is not to go all red pill, then leave her. I want to make it work with her, but at this point, staying together is no longer a requirement.