I think it's over 5 years since I learned about redpill.

In that period I was really depressed and angry at the world. Because I was poor, I tried to fit in, I was in love but she didn't love me back, and all that bullshit we've all been through.

I started going to the gym, I started working and making money, I was grinding everyday and I was reading as much of the redpill knowledge as I could. Over and over again. Sometimes I scored a hot chicked, sometimes I got rejected by an ugly chick. I tought I was on the top of the world once, with a beautiful girlfriend and a good job, had to leave a job I loved (you can find the story in my posts) and broke up soon after. Started to fill the void in me with work. Didn't go to gym anymore, started again, quit again. I've spent huge sums of money trying to look richer than I was, driving a camaro or a lexus, living in a rented penthouse, going to expensive clubs or restaurants, living the high life paycheck to paycheck even though I didn't want to admit I had a problem. Got to the best physical shape of my life then to the worst. Was rich and poor. Was excited about life and depressed.

What can I say, it was a journey full of ups and downs in every area of my life. At one point I was living under the motto "self improvement is masturbation, now self destruction..." (you know what I mean) and even though I thought I was feeling good, I wasn't, trust me.

But why was that?

Well, although when I was younger I didn't want to admit, everything I did, I did to impress others. I wanted to live a dream life not for me, but to impress others. I didn't do the things that I wanted, but the things that I thought will bring me the biggest prestige in front of others and will create in their head the image I wanted.

Even though I was able to pull girls and one night stands I wanted a stable hot girlfriend because that is something that society views as a sign of success, and this lead me to big mistakes during my journey. Whenever I found a potential girl to feel that role, even though no longer was I capable of that blind love you see in movies, I wanted someone to fill the role of the trophy girlfriend in my life if you could say that, and I made noobie mistakes in the redpill game, just because I didn't want to mess the opportunity to create that perfect image of myself in front of society. Oh how dumb I was.

Even though I was making a lot of money considering the country I live in, I was simply burning through them to sustain a lifestyle that was too expensive. Didn't went in any big debts, but didn't save either. Probably this is my greatest regret, because with those money that I threw away on partying, with some good investing choices, I could have been pretty good by now.

But thanks God I had a revelation. I was at a party, and I realised I wasn't actually having fun, I was just seeing it as time wasted, I didn't enjoyed most of the company and I realised that I don't really enjoy that kind of fun. Drinking overpriced alcohol in industrial quantities was not my kind of fun anymore. Having a coffee with a good friend while discussing a business idea or talking about life in general brought me more joy than meaningless expensive party. Especially since I realised the highlights of that party were pretty much the moments I would post a story on instagram to show off my life style then checking the people who saw the story from time to time, just to get joy from seeing someone who did bad to me in the past seeing how well I'm doing now. That's what I thought. It was bullshit. Nobody gives a fuck about you. Maybe for a second they will throw a curse word in your direction but that's it.

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I'm no longer doing stuff like that. I no longer want to impress people. I've realised life is too short to do things you don't enjoy 100%.

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I no longer go to gym to become buffed up to impress chicks. I go for my health (and having this in mind I'm actually more motivated to go, because when the only reason you are hitting the gym is to increase your SMV, then on the first rejection your motivation will drop).

I no longer pay a big rent for a penthouse, I bought a nice apartment with everything I need instead ( which actually looks a lot nicer since I furnished it as I pleased and take less of my time to keep nice and clean).

I no longer have the lexus, which I bought just because (in my mind) it showed I'm a serious successful young man. I sold it, most of the money I used for a good investment (won't go into details, but it will return x3 in two years, it was a hell of a good tip), and what was left I used to buy a used car (but still quiet nice) that I drive to work everyday. I still have a passion for cars and I plan to buy a car for my joy without giving a fuck about the brand prestige (when I consider that I have some money to put into that because right now I'm focusing on saving up and investing).

I no longer wear my expensive wardrobe and take over an hour to decide what to wear and prepare in the morning. I dress to feel good with what comes in handy at the moment. That's it.

I no longer wear my rolex everyday and I said I wouldn't wear it daily until I could buy one with 25% of my monthly income..

I no longer spend a lot of times on dating apps going out with chicks that think they are better than they are just because there are 1000 guys asking them out. Instead, if I see a cute girl at my coffee place, I start talking to her and ask for her number, or at the library, or wherever the fuck I am, if I wish so. You would be surprised how natural a conversation can come in real life when you haven't been vetted online before, and I enjoy this a lot more.

I'm no longer a try hard, and I'm the happiest I've ever been. I spend my money wisely, I go to dates from time to time, pull a girl now and then when I'm into the mood to fuck something. I reduced my circle of friends to the ones I truly enjoy spending time with. I no longer go to any social event just to show off on the internet. Actually, I'm no longer so active on the social media at all. I just don't give a fuck. My main goal is no longer impressing others, but retiring early and living a peaceful live.

That should be the end goal of redpill, retiring early, living a peaceful life and doing the things you truly love, not the things that everybody wishes to do so you can show off that you live the life they wished. Just my two cent.

The earlier you realise this the better you will be. Partying and fucking one new girl everynight is not the goal. Your happiness is, if that means your happiness, go for it, if not, don't follow the social norm of happiness.

As I said, right now I'm happy, sipping from a bottle of wine that I didn't post on instagram, writing a post on redpill before I return to writing on my book, listening to some music, after I spent some quality time with my family who I've neglected in the last years. Tomorrow I'll be ready to go to my office which I love, working at something that I like in a fun environment, then maybe I'll hit a gym, or go for a coffee, or read a book.

Life's good and I don't give a fuck about what other think.

So to sum it up:

  1. Don't give a fuck about what people think and don't try to impress others.
  2. Don't spend most of your time and energy on trying to fuck as many girls as possible. Don't make a woman your goal. They are just there, a passing entertainment for young men.
  3. Gym and exercising should be about you and your health, not about creating an image of you that will impress others.
  4. And as always: I've been a poor man, and I've been a rich man, and I choose rich everytime. Work on your career and spend your money wisely.

Cheers brothers and keep on going!