So I've had a pretty rough time the last couple years. I was in an abusive relationship and it's caused me some issues. I have tried to talk with the family, they tell me to give it up to God. I've talked with therapists that minimize the issue. I've even been told the old line that I can't be raped. It's affected my work, my education, I just don't really care any more and the only thing keeping me from ending my life is all the pain my family would have to deal with.

Edit: I got all emotional and forgot a major point. I've found I have this major aversion ranging into outright fear of women. It's far worse in smaller groups and women close to my age. If I am going to an interview and the main interviewer is female I won't even show. I guess I just refuse to be put back in that situation.

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